Poems...

Time Can Heal.

They say that time's a great healer
But I don't think that's true.
My hearts been aching so so much
Since the day that I lost you.

I had to say goodbye
before I could say hello
I wish I could of told you
How much I loved you so.

I'm sorry

So quickly you came into our lives,
So quickly torn away.
Never got the chance to meet you,
There's so much I want to say.
Where there once was joy and happiness,
Is now sadness, guilt, and pain.
All these thoughts running through my head,
It's enough to drive me insane.

The Little One We'll

never know..

It's so hard for me to try and find that right words to say.
I'm sorry we never got the chance to meet,
the chance to see your tiny body and hold your tiny feet.

I have an image of you in my mind,
your gorgeous smile,
your beautiful eyes,
a picture,
an image,
something I'll never let go.

Every Christmas,
every birthday,
I'll do nothing but wish you were here,
right by my side.

A boy or a girl I'll never know,
this love I have for you,
I'll never be able to show.

Because of you.

My bodies cold
lips are blue
why did I do this because of you?

I feel the earth below me
like a pillow under my head
no knives, no guns, but pills instead

The bottle lays empty
cap unscrewed
what did I do? what did I do?

My spirit floats my body lays
my lover finds me
and he prays

I reach for him
I'm sucked away
like a deep crest of a wave

he pounds the ground
screaming why oh why?
I asked myself why did I?

My parents arrive, my best friend too
I thought to myself, What did I do!?

I look away the pains to deep
my life is over because of me

I look back for one last glance
they zip me up in the body bag.
I did this to ease my pain
I lost instead of gained

as I look down my family
I regret that night
my life stopped ticking
because of a fight.

Celebrity

Vibrant lights
Roused clamor
Flickers of light
Extreme glamour.

Papers after paper
Tired, sore arms
Just keep on smiling
Continue to charm.

Bags under eyes
Another long day
To sit and pretend
Waste your life away.

Cameras are everywhere
You cannot hide
All the rumors that subside
Hurts deep inside.

Unseen by the public
Of internal pains
Unnoticeable feint act
The façade remains.

Glamour so evident
Media preordained
Deem forlorn
Everything unexplained.

Accomplishments surpassed
Yet feeling incomplete
Life is such
Full of Deceit

Oblivious out in the open
Hide your pain
Just keep on smiling.
Cover up the Feign.

Nobody knows
What it’s like to be them.
Many unknown facts
All condemned.

Media fakes
Public makes buzz
Having fame makes life
Nothing like it was.

The industry may seem glamorous
But it is far from glam
Every action you make
May be looked upon as a scam.

Nobody knows the truth
Behind the screen
From the public view’s eye
Much is unseen.

All we see is
The orthodox of show biz.

Vibrant lights
Roused clamor
Flickers of light
Extreme glamour.

You.

As I lie in my bed,
Your name running through my head.
All I can think of is you
And all that you do.
The way you look at me.
I feel as if I’m in a dream.
The blue sky
Reminds me of your eyes
Which gives me butterflies.
You have brightened my life
With that beautiful smile.
No longer are my days a trial.
Your touch is like heaven,
Upon my young skin.
If only you knew
That what I say is true
I would do anything just to be with you.
Hand to hand, palm to palm
Just hold me in your arms,
I love you with all my heart
'Till the very day it falls apart.
I may be young
But my heart is strong.
I know what love is
It's my name and his.
You make all the problems float away
No matter how was my day.
I love our heart to heart chats
When our beats connect,
And when my head starts to fade back
From when the blue sky
Turns sacred black.

Wondering Days.

I wonder what the days will bring,
Never knowing when the phone will ring.
I wait for you to take my heart,
But it seems you have had it from the start.
I've tried to let others in,
But I cannot trust them until this comes to an end.
We have tried so many times,
But once in a while, things tire.
I really want to be with you,
But you want to be with others too.
No matter what happens in the end,
I will fall for you all over again.

Lost.

The darkness surrounds me
It's getting so cold
I'm all alone
With no one to hold

My world is so empty
All what's left is pain
No sunshine to light my way
Just never ending rain

I drown in tears
My heart is crying
No one seems to notice
My soul is dying.